Why Delhi

Why Delhi?

Because it is Delhi.

City that welcomes you with open arms,

City that breathes poison yet gives you life.

City that is rated most unsafe yet feels home sweet home.

Relationships have failed but you find love here.

People are direct, cut throat yet they soothe.

Places you have seen in picture multiple times 

yet they feel fresh, give you energy that's new and refreshing.

Place is hot as hell and cold that kills 

Yet the city gives you warmth, enough to hold you tight.

Eternal peace that you find on streets, historic monuments 

Shopping centers and the metro with it's never ending journey.

Delhi is not just a capital, a hub of shopping spree, adda for lovers 

But it's home.

Place that has space for anyone that comes, 

Life for every emotionally or physically dead human.

You learn to love you more than anyone else.

You live for yourself more than anyone else.

You learn self love is not selfish 

You serve yourself more than serving others 

You live, love and cherish the moments in Delhi 

That's why DELHI.

Articulation

O feelings! O feelings!

Hold on..

Keep it all buried

Ere before he notices all

Before he gets to see you 

Before the world sees you

Behold what's inside you

Hold your heart that's racing 

Stop your mind from processing 

Keep your face all straight 

Counter your expressions 

Draw a line for your hunger

Do not let emotions bleed out

For this shall draw attention .

O how do I ignore this face

Those thick dark moustaches

Hiding those provocative lips.

Those beautiful black curls

Oh I am so captivated by his smile 

In wonderment do I desire.

The journey is the pleasure 

Your face is a reflection 

All that you want 

Holding sand on your grip

Need to be held strong 

Grasping fondness you developed.

You need to hold it all.

Encased in your delicate heart,

Your profound emotions.

Men

Alas men!

And I thought I knew your deepest darkest desires you hold for that just profound defined beautiful woman you lay eyes on.

I expected you to be better, trust me men in my generation did hold the same, but there is something that men these days are losing.

O no, not that, I must say they are well behaved, chivalrous and respectful. I do admire the beauty in you. But what hath destroyed you this far is to let lose of your charm. 

What changed that you get weary so soon or did you not choose to grab the opportunity. Is it your ambition, naah! I would not presume so, this generation is way more unpredictable, putting in least effort living life in comfort, piting oneself as to they are one's holding the world together.

As much as you think you have much to do in life. You may think you have seen it all and yet you have been around so little. Let yourself loose, flow with the waves, enjoy the vicinity you are in, you will realise there is lot in life that you yet not explored.

Much do I adore you, you are just the cutest creature in form of man, yet to be a man.

Man up buddy.

Feelings

It feels comforting 

Knowing someone out there will back you up

It's hopeful

Expecting you might have a hand to support 

It's ecstatic 

Feeling loved and reciprocate with same intensity 

It's settling 

Imbibing all pain given to you and moving ahead enduring more gracefully

It's mature 

Understanding all this might just disappear in thin air 

It's tactful 

Knowing it is not meant for you even if said so yet acknowledging it

It's purity 

Knowing this is not your job yet you care and look after It's love 

Blushing on their small gesture and prioritising them over you.

Life Is 

Full of surprises, with bundle of emotions encased with challenges .

khaab

Khayaalon me ek khayal aya

Sanyog se ankhein unse takrai

Khil utha tha chehra unhe dekh kar

Kashmash ta wo sama kaisa hoga

Jab fir se barso baad unhe dekhungi 

Bhar nazar unko dekh zehen m utaar lungi

Ya nazrein chura ke unki aanhein bharungi

Aur kya hoga gar nazrein takra gai

Naino ko rok unhe chor sadke nihaarungi

Ya unse nazrein mila nigaahon se guftgu karungi

Kya fir se unki ankhon me khud ko dekh paungi

Kya wo pyaar dikhega unki aankhon m

Ki jis pyaar ki khatir humne duniya se bagawat kar dala

Wo aj bhi hamein apne ankhon me basaye honge.

Ek baar ko khayaalon me hi khud ko rok lia

Kya hoga gar unki nazron me hum nahi

Kaisa hoga nazrana jo nazrein mil kar bhi anjaan hogi

Wo humnava fir nazron se qatal kar dil Todd jaega.

Gumnam Ishq

Kuch na ho kar bhi Jo thoda sa hai

Bina lafzon pe utare Jo Dil me hai

Thoda thoda zada sa par Kam sa hai

Wohi Jo ab nahi hai hamaare beech.

Kabhi hokar bhi nahi tha aur

Naa hokar bhi aj hai

Haan bus yahi, 

Jo halak pe hokar bhi jubaan pe nahi h

Kehna to hai par kon kahey

Jataane ke jiske bahaane dhund lete hain

Par jaan kar bhi anjaan rehte hain

Chalo raasta to nikla kamsekam

Kismat ki lakeeron ko maana to sahi

Wo Mera hai bhi aur nahi bhi

Mai naa hokar bhi uski hui

Thoda uski thoda apni

Dhadakti saanson me padha hai

Dur hokar bhi paas dekha hai

Jo qareeb se dur rehta hai

Ehsaas rakh kar bhi chupata hai

Chupaa kar bhi jataata hai

Mushkil hai samajhna

Haan maanti hu

Uljhanon se bhari hai ye 

Par Dil ke jis koney se

Un lamhon me khushiyan banti ti

Wo dard Jo mil kar sameta tha

Kuch Jo Aaj b adhura sa hai

Dono k sath m bhi kbhi poora na hai

Wo ehsaas 

Jo mohobbat ki gali naa gaya

Aur Ishq ke mohalle se taalukh na raha

Kuch adhura shayad tumhara 

Kuch kamiyan meri

Wo hissa mera Jo tera na hua

Wo tukra tumhara Jo Mera na hua

Adhure se is khaalipan me

Jo tumne mujhse, maine tumse

Bin kahey jataa liya

Aesa h ye rhistha hamara.

A happy place

As they say, "You are my happy place"

So pinch me, or destroy my phantasy

Have been holding myself tight

Embraced all emotions gracefully 

Without pouring even a drop of insight 

Just let me be, as hope still looks fascinating. 

It does lure me today as well.

Who doesn't like that teeny tiny happy moments 

But the pain afterwards is harsh on heart 

So just let me be, 

Drenched in sorrows yet smiling 

Pierced with improbable possibilities 

Yet glowing bright with moments unknown

I am okay, and I am living so be it.

Love is not all you need, feeling gives no power

So let me be powerful, let me paint myself beautiful 

With all fancy colors of materialistic life,

Hiding all the darkness within.

I promise to stay in my boundaries,

And never touch your Circumference 

I promise thee, just let me be.

To people proposing on planned public event

To people expressing love on social media, this, what you feel is not the Love my child.

For love need not be told, it did not require celebration in public, never demanded a bucket of exaggerating expressions, it never asked for gifts, materialistic luxuries.

As Krishna speaks of love, it is a state of giving. Where you pour all your affection, gratitude onto the person you love, without even asking for being acknowledged. It is a pure expression that is felt. When mere sight of a person escalates your heartbeat, your eyes automatically bend downward with a cold shiver arising in your skin the moment he sets eyes on you. Your heart skips a beat if you do not see him as you have seen him regular. You just fall for someone and suddenly that someone you never noticed becomes noticeable. Hard to hide your feelings yet you try your level best to indulge yourself in other chores to save yourself being caught.

That grin appearing on your face everytime giving a blush on your cheek is how we used to get caught, back in those days when we did not have access to mobile phones. Tell them that pronouncing the word 'love' thousand times, does not intensity the love. But with a glimpse of the person everytime you see you fall in love again and again. Secretly looking at him and get startled the moment he notices your gaze...that my child is pure love. You are scared to express your feelings yet that person walks into that room, with eyes searching for your presence and looks away with a smile the moment he catches your glimpse.

Professing love

Ask me

I can tell you in more ways

than you could ever imagine

For so much I have loved you

to let go, with the sweetness

that your love has poured on me

giving you all that you wished for

taking all the pain with smile. 

It's the innocence of love

authenticity of pious emotions

explicit feelings that I bear for you.

No matter how far we are

let distance and silence speak

for the close warmth we share together.

I can still profess my love till eternity.

With words and emotions

with eyes and gestures

with noise and silence

till my heart matches your beat

till your soul rests on mine

do I endeavour till destiny arrives

pour all the love right over to you

to love you till my last breath arrives.

After the day ends

After the day ends,

after the hustle bustle

after busy work schedule

after every smile that flashes

after the day's routine when

body retires, it triggers pain.

heart aches & soul weeps,

In the noisy world you try

finding peace, resting your body

you imagine relaxing the exertion

But

All you can perceive after day's proceeding

is a vaccum, a hollow feel at heart

A sinking feeling that haunts 

The depressed veins that hurts

And a defeated spirit

that no longer desires

anything that may inspire

Ummeed

Sukoon bhi milega, khushiyan tere qadam choomengi
Imtehaan bus lamba hai zindagi ka, kahin rukna mat.
Sabar rakh aur ummeed ki chingaari jalte rehne de
Teri khwahishon ki sez sajaa wo khud baitha hai tere liye
Bus bharosa rakh, thoda khud pe aur thoda khuda pe.

Defining Love

Love is a window

that allows you to witness 

beauty and colorful vision outside

You may often confuse the scenic enchantment.

The bright light that glitters on the window pane,

Is coming from the life burning outside in real world.

charisma that soothes your young pounding heart

Is a mixture of colourful glimpse of misery and pain

dancing in view with joy mixed with bleeding sorrows.

चाँद से पूछ लो

चाँद से पूछ लो

उनके घर का रास्ता

हमने अंधेरों में रैन बसा लिया है।

ज़रूरत पड़े तो भोर का इंतज़ार कर लेना।

हमने अपना रास्ता बदल लिया है।

ना गलियां अब याद रही ना वो।

खूब देखा हमने अंजाम त्याग का,

आज उन्हें त्याग आगे बढ़े हैं।

अब मंज़िल भी नई है और रास्ता भी।

बहुत चल लिए सहारे उनके साथ,

अब खुद के साथ खुशहाल आगे बढ़ना सीख लिया है।

बिटवा

Hawa ka rukh badalte dekha hai

Maine har mausam ko badalte dekha hai.

Yakeen hai ye waqt bhi guzar jayega

Bharosa hai tujhpe, maa ke paas fir ayega.

Auron ke pyar ko badalte dekha hai

tujhse mera naata hi aur hai,

डोरियों se nahi नाड़ी se judaa hai tu.

khokhle rishton se bandhe pyar pe लुट ke dekha,

thoda hum tootey baaki rhishton ne toda.

ek apne jism ka katra hi tha jo jodd ke chalaa gaya.

dard dekar bhi pyar ke saagar me dubo gaya.

dard me bhi muskurana sikhaa gaya, 

badan todd kar bhi dil jodna sikhaa gaya.

आँखों का प्यार

मुद्दत बाद आज तेरी आँखों में झांका
तो निगाहों में मैं तो थी,
पर मेरे लिए वो प्यार कहीं खो सा गया था।
ये मेरा वहम है या किसी तूफान का डर,
जाने क्यों तेरे एकरार पे आज ऐतबार ना हुआ।
क्या हुआ जो मुझे तुझसे तुझसा प्यार ना हुआ।
पर पहले कभी तेरी आँखों में मेरी खातिर
वो प्यार तो कम ना हुआ , फिर आज क्यों?
वो आज़माइश तेरे ईश्क की निगाहों से
थोड़ा एकरार और इन्कार था ज़िक्र जिसमें
बस प्यार, आज उस प्यार पर करार ना हुआ।
तुम्हारी आँखों में झांक मुझे आज, तुमसे वो प्यार ना हुआ।

Celebrating Women !

Since ages men have ruled

And women have conquered.

For what's her is not her's

Centuries have defined her

On name of her love but never her.

For time and again history

Enlightens the beauty of ethnicity

Where women vanquish and have ruled.

Every culture in this globe

How hard they tried, couldn't flatten

The powerful glory and the aura

That surrounds the silhouette of a women.

No beauty on this earth is as influencing

No bond was ever stronger than a women's love,

And no intelligence appeared with responsible beauty.

Salute to those men who supported women in their life,

This world is a better place with men like you,

You have given wings it's strength to fly,

The required enthusiasm to move far and dry.

To women who refuse to go weary and continue

Working , devoting their time for love and sacrifice

Happy women's day.

Pain personified

For broken as I am

Pieces yet scatters

With every storm passing by

It further generate more damage.

Though I hold the ground , firm n tall

Further it disintegrate into Smaller piece as sand.

Yet I cling to liquidity and withhold myself into a ball.

The melancholy echoes so hard that smeared pieces

Fall apart and the holding of the ball breaks open to let loose

And vaunting of collecting and disintegrating continues.

Mesmerized

Those strong masculine arms when embraced me tight to not let go I had fallen there, already in love and yet it feels I can love more, More to sublime my soggy emotions with his strength. Stronger than I expected, true charmer to swipe off your logical sensitivity ,captive in his tight embrace. Lust was it felt more like love. 

Is this a song I am listening to or just an illusion. Pinch me to stand in reality, make me realise more that I want, oh! I so want him more, beside , behind, inside out, can be all over me. 

Those soft little lips covered in moustache and beard were talking a lot until I locked it with mine cuddling in his arms, hands moving around, from his full length shoulders to lower curve of the body, and there I stand with him bare,  bewitched in his eyes, in his clutch today I feel safe, more secure to open up to fulfill the lust lost love.

In the whims and fanciful thought feeling effectuate I stand lost in his allure . My clothes , my hairs and body is still engrossed in enchanting odour of his body. For I refuse to wash my hairs, wash off my clothes to hold his smell, to hold him close enough to my senses to keep me moving intoxicated in his feeling.

Lost Love

 It was usual day and I was out for shopping with my mother when suddenly my eyes got stuck on him.  I froze for a minute, kept looking at him and regained senses after my mother shook me up. I looked at my mother and again looked at him. Emotion flooded from inside, I found it hard to stand or to stabilize myself, tears were about to roll down my cheeks when I patted myself, shook my legs and held those tears in the eyes , with a deep long breath I answered my mother "yes let's go". 

It was him, the long lost first love of my life. I have been  longing for him all these years. I used to imagine how it would be when I see him again. I used to think whether he would be married or how many kids he would have. All these years I have been holding myself together and promising myself to not break when I see him. But here I am, all shattered and destroyed. 

I walk closer to see more of him. Meanwhile my mother and I having conversation about list of stuff we need to collect from the store. "Yes Maa that's all, we don't need much stuff ". All this while staring him. I walk closer to see a woman standing by his side. And suddenly a cute little girl came running from nowhere and hold pulls his trousers saying, "Dad I want those chocolates". And as I go closer I hear his voice after decades I hear something that soothes my ears. In his voice he replied, "Okay I will get you the chocolates". And then he holds her in his arms getting her the chocolates she asked. 

I am looking at the entire scenario from a distance where he did not see me. I saw the charm in his face, the shine in his eyes out of happiness on holding his daughter. He looks at the woman, his wife with intense eyes filled with love. They had finished their shopping and were leaving when our eyes met. I could not stop staring at him, breathing heavily I looked at his wife, his kids, giving a smirk I looked away and moved towards the shop where my mother was standing.

I held pain for a very long duration. We had parted in good terms and yet I was in continuous distress but no more. As I see him happy and content in his life with beautiful small family I feel relieved. Today I am happy for him and today I feel I can move on in my life too.

Stranger

 ''Are you alright?' you asked me out of the blue. We didn't even know each other back then, but this question made me feel safe even cared for after a long time. You asked if I was alright again and I replied : " Yeah I am fine". 

Something shook within and I became alert. Adjusting my dress I looked down and sideways to confirm I was looking just normal. Collecting my curls spread all over my face I tied them into a bun. While I was fishing for my hairpin in my bag you stepped forward with the pin on the ground, "are you looking for this?" I replied: "yes" and took it from your hand and tucked in my hair. There was this first eye contact I made with a man after being boisterously manhandled. You looked concerned and your eyes were like a mirror reflecting your innocence, truthfulness and care.

We sat for approximately an hour waiting for the bus that day, in that hour I realized I can befriend and trust someone in this Men's world.  The comfort and safety that you made me feel that day was the reason I stood stronger after the wrath that had just happened. Anger, fury, recklessness, and demureness would not have passed had you not been there by my side all this while.