आँखों का प्यार

मुद्दत बाद आज तेरी आँखों में झांका
तो निगाहों में मैं तो थी,
पर मेरे लिए वो प्यार कहीं खो सा गया था।
ये मेरा वहम है या किसी तूफान का डर,
जाने क्यों तेरे एकरार पे आज ऐतबार ना हुआ।
क्या हुआ जो मुझे तुझसे तुझसा प्यार ना हुआ।
पर पहले कभी तेरी आँखों में मेरी खातिर
वो प्यार तो कम ना हुआ , फिर आज क्यों?
वो आज़माइश तेरे ईश्क की निगाहों से
थोड़ा एकरार और इन्कार था ज़िक्र जिसमें
बस प्यार, आज उस प्यार पर करार ना हुआ।
तुम्हारी आँखों में झांक मुझे आज, तुमसे वो प्यार ना हुआ।

Celebrating Women !

Since ages men have ruled

And women have conquered.

For what's her is not her's

Centuries have defined her

On name of her love but never her.

For time and again history

Enlightens the beauty of ethnicity

Where women vanquish and have ruled.

Every culture in this globe

How hard they tried, couldn't flatten

The powerful glory and the aura

That surrounds the silhouette of a women.

No beauty on this earth is as influencing

No bond was ever stronger than a women's love,

And no intelligence appeared with responsible beauty.

Salute to those men who supported women in their life,

This world is a better place with men like you,

You have given wings it's strength to fly,

The required enthusiasm to move far and dry.

To women who refuse to go weary and continue

Working , devoting their time for love and sacrifice

Happy women's day.

Pain personified

For broken as I am

Pieces yet scatters

With every storm passing by

It further generate more damage.

Though I hold the ground , firm n tall

Further it disintegrate into Smaller piece as sand.

Yet I cling to liquidity and withhold myself into a ball.

The melancholy echoes so hard that smeared pieces

Fall apart and the holding of the ball breaks open to let loose

And vaunting of collecting and disintegrating continues.

Mesmerized

Those strong masculine arms when embraced me tight to not let go I had fallen there, already in love and yet it feels I can love more, More to sublime my soggy emotions with his strength. Stronger than I expected, true charmer to swipe off your logical sensitivity ,captive in his tight embrace. Lust was it felt more like love. 

Is this a song I am listening to or just an illusion. Pinch me to stand in reality, make me realise more that I want, oh! I so want him more, beside , behind, inside out, can be all over me. 

Those soft little lips covered in moustache and beard were talking a lot until I locked it with mine cuddling in his arms, hands moving around, from his full length shoulders to lower curve of the body, and there I stand with him bare,  bewitched in his eyes, in his clutch today I feel safe, more secure to open up to fulfill the lust lost love.

In the whims and fanciful thought feeling effectuate I stand lost in his allure . My clothes , my hairs and body is still engrossed in enchanting odour of his body. For I refuse to wash my hairs, wash off my clothes to hold his smell, to hold him close enough to my senses to keep me moving intoxicated in his feeling.

Lost Love

 It was usual day and I was out for shopping with my mother when suddenly my eyes got stuck on him.  I froze for a minute, kept looking at him and regained senses after my mother shook me up. I looked at my mother and again looked at him. Emotion flooded from inside, I found it hard to stand or to stabilize myself, tears were about to roll down my cheeks when I patted myself, shook my legs and held those tears in the eyes , with a deep long breath I answered my mother "yes let's go". 

It was him, the long lost first love of my life. I have been  longing for him all these years. I used to imagine how it would be when I see him again. I used to think whether he would be married or how many kids he would have. All these years I have been holding myself together and promising myself to not break when I see him. But here I am, all shattered and destroyed. 

I walk closer to see more of him. Meanwhile my mother and I having conversation about list of stuff we need to collect from the store. "Yes Maa that's all, we don't need much stuff ". All this while staring him. I walk closer to see a woman standing by his side. And suddenly a cute little girl came running from nowhere and hold pulls his trousers saying, "Dad I want those chocolates". And as I go closer I hear his voice after decades I hear something that soothes my ears. In his voice he replied, "Okay I will get you the chocolates". And then he holds her in his arms getting her the chocolates she asked. 

I am looking at the entire scenario from a distance where he did not see me. I saw the charm in his face, the shine in his eyes out of happiness on holding his daughter. He looks at the woman, his wife with intense eyes filled with love. They had finished their shopping and were leaving when our eyes met. I could not stop staring at him, breathing heavily I looked at his wife, his kids, giving a smirk I looked away and moved towards the shop where my mother was standing.

I held pain for a very long duration. We had parted in good terms and yet I was in continuous distress but no more. As I see him happy and content in his life with beautiful small family I feel relieved. Today I am happy for him and today I feel I can move on in my life too.

Stranger

 ''Are you alright?' you asked me out of the blue. We didn't even know each other back then, but this question made me feel safe even cared for after a long time. You asked if I was alright again and I replied : " Yeah I am fine". 

Something shook within and I became alert. Adjusting my dress I looked down and sideways to confirm I was looking just normal. Collecting my curls spread all over my face I tied them into a bun. While I was fishing for my hairpin in my bag you stepped forward with the pin on the ground, "are you looking for this?" I replied: "yes" and took it from your hand and tucked in my hair. There was this first eye contact I made with a man after being boisterously manhandled. You looked concerned and your eyes were like a mirror reflecting your innocence, truthfulness and care.

We sat for approximately an hour waiting for the bus that day, in that hour I realized I can befriend and trust someone in this Men's world.  The comfort and safety that you made me feel that day was the reason I stood stronger after the wrath that had just happened. Anger, fury, recklessness, and demureness would not have passed had you not been there by my side all this while.

Part-2

 Preview:

Singly Married ~ Ashu had proposed Mihika for marriage, she neither refused or accepted the proposal. But the ring..... 

Mihika still have that ring with her. She wears it as pendant which is never visible. She always kept Ashu close to her heart. Even after 5 years, that love existed in her system as the blood flows through her veins. 

Mihika didn't marry Ashu or anyone else. Till today she was waiting for the right moment. The moment when she would feel responsible enough to dive into that life. She was too scared to get involved into customs, social attribute and liability. She grew up strong, wise, intelligent and smart. 

Ashu always complimented her existence. Her wild activities and his sober handlings of her mischief. She  shouted and he calmed her with his patience. Her hatred and his love was like that sweet which would not taste better without sour. His achievements, her decisions were winning them their goals in life. She knew he would come everytime she would not even ask for, but needed him. She annoyed him to beg for death and yet he came around every time. 

Ever since Ashu asked Mihika, she has been running around to places, meeting more people and trying to hide her complexities in her schedule. She needed him but was scared of commitment . 

What if this doesn't work out? What if he starts hating me? What if the fights between us start growing intense to part us to different ways?

She kept grilling these thoughts in her mind.

Until one day in that village walking around the Riverside she saw someone coming towards her. The moment she saw him her phone dropped in the mud and as she bend to pick up the phone the neckpiece floating in the air showcased the ring she was hiding.

In a hustle she turned around fixed her neckline hiding the neckpiece, turned around and said, "hey Ashu! how come you are here?". Ashu looked at her for good 15minutes glancing at her. Both kept looking at each other's eyes and felt the pain and ecstacy at the same time.

Ashu held her hand started speaking, "What are you doing with your life, ever since I asked you have been running around avoiding my calls, texts or mails. If you want to refuse to my proposal, or if you don't want me around why are you wearing that ring?".

Mihika stood silent for 5minutes.

...to be continued.....