Feelings

It feels comforting 

Knowing someone out there will back you up

It's hopeful

Expecting you might have a hand to support 

It's ecstatic 

Feeling loved and reciprocate with same intensity 

It's settling 

Imbibing all pain given to you and moving ahead enduring more gracefully

It's mature 

Understanding all this might just disappear in thin air 

It's tactful 

Knowing it is not meant for you even if said so yet acknowledging it

It's purity 

Knowing this is not your job yet you care and look after It's love 

Blushing on their small gesture and prioritising them over you.

Life Is 

Full of surprises, with bundle of emotions encased with challenges .

khaab

Khayaalon me ek khayal aya

Sanyog se ankhein unse takrai

Khil utha tha chehra unhe dekh kar

Kashmash ta wo sama kaisa hoga

Jab fir se barso baad unhe dekhungi 

Bhar nazar unko dekh zehen m utaar lungi

Ya nazrein chura ke unki aanhein bharungi

Aur kya hoga gar nazrein takra gai

Naino ko rok unhe chor sadke nihaarungi

Ya unse nazrein mila nigaahon se guftgu karungi

Kya fir se unki ankhon me khud ko dekh paungi

Kya wo pyaar dikhega unki aankhon m

Ki jis pyaar ki khatir humne duniya se bagawat kar dala

Wo aj bhi hamein apne ankhon me basaye honge.

Ek baar ko khayaalon me hi khud ko rok lia

Kya hoga gar unki nazron me hum nahi

Kaisa hoga nazrana jo nazrein mil kar bhi anjaan hogi

Wo humnava fir nazron se qatal kar dil Todd jaega.

Gumnam Ishq

Kuch na ho kar bhi Jo thoda sa hai

Bina lafzon pe utare Jo Dil me hai

Thoda thoda zada sa par Kam sa hai

Wohi Jo ab nahi hai hamaare beech.

Kabhi hokar bhi nahi tha aur

Naa hokar bhi aj hai

Haan bus yahi, 

Jo halak pe hokar bhi jubaan pe nahi h

Kehna to hai par kon kahey

Jataane ke jiske bahaane dhund lete hain

Par jaan kar bhi anjaan rehte hain

Chalo raasta to nikla kamsekam

Kismat ki lakeeron ko maana to sahi

Wo Mera hai bhi aur nahi bhi

Mai naa hokar bhi uski hui

Thoda uski thoda apni

Dhadakti saanson me padha hai

Dur hokar bhi paas dekha hai

Jo qareeb se dur rehta hai

Ehsaas rakh kar bhi chupata hai

Chupaa kar bhi jataata hai

Mushkil hai samajhna

Haan maanti hu

Uljhanon se bhari hai ye 

Par Dil ke jis koney se

Un lamhon me khushiyan banti ti

Wo dard Jo mil kar sameta tha

Kuch Jo Aaj b adhura sa hai

Dono k sath m bhi kbhi poora na hai

Wo ehsaas 

Jo mohobbat ki gali naa gaya

Aur Ishq ke mohalle se taalukh na raha

Kuch adhura shayad tumhara 

Kuch kamiyan meri

Wo hissa mera Jo tera na hua

Wo tukra tumhara Jo Mera na hua

Adhure se is khaalipan me

Jo tumne mujhse, maine tumse

Bin kahey jataa liya

Aesa h ye rhistha hamara.

A happy place

As they say, "You are my happy place"

So pinch me, or destroy my phantasy

Have been holding myself tight

Embraced all emotions gracefully 

Without pouring even a drop of insight 

Just let me be, as hope still looks fascinating. 

It does lure me today as well.

Who doesn't like that teeny tiny happy moments 

But the pain afterwards is harsh on heart 

So just let me be, 

Drenched in sorrows yet smiling 

Pierced with improbable possibilities 

Yet glowing bright with moments unknown

I am okay, and I am living so be it.

Love is not all you need, feeling gives no power

So let me be powerful, let me paint myself beautiful 

With all fancy colors of materialistic life,

Hiding all the darkness within.

I promise to stay in my boundaries,

And never touch your Circumference 

I promise thee, just let me be.

To people proposing on planned public event

To people expressing love on social media, this, what you feel is not the Love my child.

For love need not be told, it did not require celebration in public, never demanded a bucket of exaggerating expressions, it never asked for gifts, materialistic luxuries.

As Krishna speaks of love, it is a state of giving. Where you pour all your affection, gratitude onto the person you love, without even asking for being acknowledged. It is a pure expression that is felt. When mere sight of a person escalates your heartbeat, your eyes automatically bend downward with a cold shiver arising in your skin the moment he sets eyes on you. Your heart skips a beat if you do not see him as you have seen him regular. You just fall for someone and suddenly that someone you never noticed becomes noticeable. Hard to hide your feelings yet you try your level best to indulge yourself in other chores to save yourself being caught.

That grin appearing on your face everytime giving a blush on your cheek is how we used to get caught, back in those days when we did not have access to mobile phones. Tell them that pronouncing the word 'love' thousand times, does not intensity the love. But with a glimpse of the person everytime you see you fall in love again and again. Secretly looking at him and get startled the moment he notices your gaze...that my child is pure love. You are scared to express your feelings yet that person walks into that room, with eyes searching for your presence and looks away with a smile the moment he catches your glimpse.

Professing love

Ask me

I can tell you in more ways

than you could ever imagine

For so much I have loved you

to let go, with the sweetness

that your love has poured on me

giving you all that you wished for

taking all the pain with smile. 

It's the innocence of love

authenticity of pious emotions

explicit feelings that I bear for you.

No matter how far we are

let distance and silence speak

for the close warmth we share together.

I can still profess my love till eternity.

With words and emotions

with eyes and gestures

with noise and silence

till my heart matches your beat

till your soul rests on mine

do I endeavour till destiny arrives

pour all the love right over to you

to love you till my last breath arrives.

After the day ends

After the day ends,

after the hustle bustle

after busy work schedule

after every smile that flashes

after the day's routine when

body retires, it triggers pain.

heart aches & soul weeps,

In the noisy world you try

finding peace, resting your body

you imagine relaxing the exertion

But

All you can perceive after day's proceeding

is a vaccum, a hollow feel at heart

A sinking feeling that haunts 

The depressed veins that hurts

And a defeated spirit

that no longer desires

anything that may inspire